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Just over two months after breaking up with you (you breaking up with me), I like to think that I'm over you. I don't text you, don't beg you to call me and tell me why. I know why. I can now chart our downward spiral, can pinpoint the moments where things went wrong. We are okay with each other, I like to think. (We even had a normal conversation a few weeks ago, though the both of us were admittedly a little drunk.)
But I still miss things - your hand in my hair, on my waist. The look in your eyes right before you kissed me. I miss acting like a little kid (this I miss most of all). There was something so perfectly childish in the way I would tackle you, you fighting valiantly to put grass in my hair and mouth. I miss making bets on who'd win UNO, and fighting over a stick, a little piece of tree branch, for over an hour. I came home that day with gravel imprints in my knees, smelling of dirt and rain and you.
My mother asked if I was sleeping with you. I said no without blushing, because I didn't yet think of you in that way. That came later, after I learned the distinct smell of grass tangled with your hair. Sometimes, I still can't separate the two.
But I still miss things - your hand in my hair, on my waist. The look in your eyes right before you kissed me. I miss acting like a little kid (this I miss most of all). There was something so perfectly childish in the way I would tackle you, you fighting valiantly to put grass in my hair and mouth. I miss making bets on who'd win UNO, and fighting over a stick, a little piece of tree branch, for over an hour. I came home that day with gravel imprints in my knees, smelling of dirt and rain and you.
My mother asked if I was sleeping with you. I said no without blushing, because I didn't yet think of you in that way. That came later, after I learned the distinct smell of grass tangled with your hair. Sometimes, I still can't separate the two.
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mother
mother with whistle, button and mace
drops her weapons to the hospital floor
and screams.
father rejoices - a princess! i'll teach her
everything.
mother still screams.
father, laughing - i pity the boy who asks for her hand.
mother holds baby and shrieks.
father's skin crawls - why aren't you happy?
mother screams. mother howls. mother, inconsolable
(everyone dies but girls are always
born dead)
Literature
Surrogate
I stopped using his full title
because it started sounding too formal,
and it’s hard to be standoffish with someone
who swaps albums and memories so generously,
who loves German chocolate but hates the smell of oranges,
who knows me by my boneless,
drowsy form on the couch and by my words.
And maybe one day he’ll ask
me to drop the title altogether and call him Brad,
but I won’t.
Because it sounds too much like dad,
and I’m afraid of slipping up.
Literature
The Sins of The Father
I’m the sum of all my fathers
But I won’t carry all their sins
The seed of life is precious
But blown away by gentle winds
Bad that’s happened in the past
Cannot be blamed today
For those who came before us
Have left their mark but gone away
We may inherit family features
And some traits just carry on
But we are all individuals who
Need to know that we belong
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Love hurts, boys and girls.
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"Love hurts, boys and girls." Understatement of the year, even, I'd say.
Smell is a sense often forgotten in writing, I think, but it is also so closely linked to memory. I love the way you used it here. It's beautiful.
I believe I might have spotted an error. Should, "My mother asked if I was sleeping you," include the word with? Thought I'd point it out, just in case it wasn't intentional.
Overall, this is a really lovely short piece.
Smell is a sense often forgotten in writing, I think, but it is also so closely linked to memory. I love the way you used it here. It's beautiful.
I believe I might have spotted an error. Should, "My mother asked if I was sleeping you," include the word with? Thought I'd point it out, just in case it wasn't intentional.
Overall, this is a really lovely short piece.